Tired of waiting for the right guy, maybe because there isn't any. There is but i let it pass, now am wondering, how am i suppose to know if he is the one? how am i suppose to know that leaving someone behind for another would make it real? when you know that chances are too rare and mistakes cannot be afforded. how will you know that he is worth fighting for?
i woke up this morning feeling sad because the person in my side is no longer in my heart. sad because i wanted it to be him, i wanted someone like him so badly but my heart says no! i am not confused i mean not entirely, my heart isn't however my mind is. i listened to my heart hoping that things would then make sense however until now, things are pretty hazy.
how long have we been together? with him i feel home, safe. my heart is safe with him but my heart is longing for something else. something i am not certain and will never be certain. i don't wanna get out, i can't afford hurting a good man. decisions are crucial i know but i don't wanna act on impulse, not right now.
well, hopefully i will get by...
hopefully...
