to start with...
it's been weeks now since i asked for a meeting with my love mars...hi love! ameshu already...so much!:)
she's been the constant commentator on my blog everytime i write something, she took my writings seriously enough because she knows those are my heart's cries. she is feeling the pain that i have inside and see through the content of my heart. i really wanna see you and hug you and talk to you love, sit down and be quiet and listen and laugh and cry. oh, how i miss that...thanks love and thanks so much!:)
that was not the start yet...
question:
what is love? anyone who's been inlove and is currently inlove and been heartbroken would somehow have there own definition. answering it on the psychological point of view would mean that love works from the brain.(period). but hopeless romantic as some people are, love is more or less than that. badik said that is more like a painting, abstract and it's how you define and see the beauty it persudes. well, is he right? well, however we define it, we are all right. so let's stop asking what love is...
how will you know that you're inlove? is there a scent for love? will you hear a siren if it's coming? or music rather? or a cry of desperation on to what seem to be an endless wait for nothing? well, for a start, stop asking yourself- it'll just come--when you wake up one morning feeling dizzy from a couple glasses of vodka and shots of martini and remembering that last night was your 1st monthsarry and she said she's going out with friends yet you saw her dancing with another one...ouch! it hurts you not just because you're ego thinks so but because you can't stand the pain. the pain tells you you're in the deep. may it happen to ladies or guys it's the same scenario and same pain. but this is the side where you don't want to picture yourself into. you're inlove when you see the person every single day and it seems that's the first time you ever see his/her face. so let's face it, you're inlove when you choose to realize that you are.
do you believe that friendship develops into love? this was a question i asked my brother yesterday..when you enter into a friendship, you know for a fact what you wanted into that friendship if that develops into something that is what you have chosen. when you opt be in contact with a person you know what you wanted, you just didnt expect the things that transpires..you're certain of what you feel, you're certain of what you have, you just didnt realize it'll be this hard to handle. so for once, let's stick to the plan..hahahahaha...
can you choose who to fall for? you wish!
badik said, "you're a very bothered girl- you know that?". is he right?or correct?
hahay, i'll be in my mid-20's 2 days from now and i still feel like my heart is still 16 years old. looking for love, looking for answers, looking for the frog prince to kiss and to do magic. hoping, waiting, confusing myself to so called ever after. come out of my head ideal man, i want right man now, right now.
