from yahoo 360 blog dated:june 30th of '06

death @ that time was a welcomed option...never did it occur to me that life is sweet with it's constant struggle and pains...
i love to pretend that things are okey..never thinking that it wasn't at all..the absoluteness of things occuring and the fear of not having the courage to retain calmness is constant...
i was crazy..
still...
unstable...
sad...
happy...
till i realized...
i grew up different...