i can't remember the last time happiness accompanied me. it was a very wonderful feeling but it's long been gone. i am a wacky person. i laugh so hard and i have a very big mouth..wahahaha.. i am often complaining of how my life has ended like this (as if it already ended). been so overthinking, overanalyzing and overfeeling feelings...
well, no one has ever ordered me to feel like a rotten papaya...eww...i dared to be myself and i am so pathetic. happiness? i will find you, i know i will... i am just too busy nursing my broken heart daw! but kidding aside i feel so blessed, i cleaned my room last night and i felt compelled and a bit of happy before going to bed. see? happiness is just too simple that sometimes i i just totally mess around with it and never notice it. i am trying to feel my heart from the palm of my hand and literally i can say, it's heavy..too much worries and too much problems...too much thinking of the unnecessary stuffs..i asked myself yesterday, i worry for people i love, i worry for my future and i worry for things not yet here...what if i die tomorrow?or today?what will happen to the things i worry a lot?nada...
well, just a few realizations of life's common sense and common issues..money, love, family and sex...wahahaha...
happiness? 
